out of this world

I spent the week in Las Vegas. Before I left, I downloaded the entirety of John Mayer’s “Continuum” and had “Battle Studies” from a few years ago, but never really listened to it. I was into a few John Mayer songs, but never really listened until this month. Thank God I did. Most days this week turned into lying by the pool and just listening to John Mayer. Eyes closed, with the sun on me and his music in my head— my whole body was warm, drifting on some beautiful planet that I had not yet explored. There is something about his music, and his lyrics, that brings light to my mind and helps fight the darkness that keeps trying to come back. I was looking up this song, “Bold as Love,” and I found that it is actually a Jimi Hendrix song. I never listened to much Hendrix, but I was really into the whole concept of the axis, and these lyrics just speak to me and create images and colors in my mind that I adore, and can’t ignore. I tried to do some research on “the Axis,” just because I was feeling lazy. I found this on Google, posted by some random guy:

just like the earth spins on its axis, we have a center. it is your inner divinity

so, you are spinning spinning spinning with emotions and fear and you don’t know what to do or where to turn, breathe deep, the answers are inside you, direct from the light of the universe to your crown chakra down through you; listen and feel.

And I’m so feeling this, and I’m like this music really saved me because I start to feel the light inside of me, and open myself up to the universe speaking to me. I saw a random post on Facebook that was like, “When you are young, you cry to get what you want— and when you are old, you cry while trying to forget or ignore what you want” and I will have no more of that. I will be irrevocable me. I see the stupid shit on Facebook and I’m like.. why don’t I enjoy this stupid shit? Where is the pleasure in this stupid shit? I had to listen to more Mayer, more Hendrix, look inside myself and realize— my inner light is just too bright to destroy and demean myself in an effort to be “normal.” I’m bold as love— just like the axis :)